Wednesday, February 9, 2011

#37 Titillating no talk

Things unsaid can be so titillating. I'm not talking about things that annoy you or things you are upset about. I'm talking about things that would be slightly awkward to say. There are a couple of people I want to say things to, but because of certain situations ... I can't. 

To person number one I would like to say...

"I think you are great. I look forward to seeing you and when I don't, it's kind of gutting. I like your mannerisms, your quirks, your smile. I want hang out with you, I want to know more. If I could take away all the suffering you have endured I would. At the moment you are in my thoughts and I like the daydream. I know it's silly and nothing will ever come of it but I still like entertaining the idea. And when it stops being entertaining that will be ok too. But in the meantime if you could just instigate a reason to hang out that would really make my week." 

To person number 2 I would say...

"I wish you were here so we could see each other more. So we could talk about this more, but it seems kind of pointless at this stage. I do think about you, but I try not to. I would love to hang out and see where it goes, because you do mean something to me even if I don't want to admit it. You can't deny our past and what it means to both of us. I've never really thought about it but it really does mean a lot to me. You mean a lot to me. Love is a strange thing, and I'm not sure what kind of love it is. I hope you are happy, that's the most important thing to me." 

These two little speeches have recently been floating around in my head. Maybe I should just shut them up... but as I said, I find it titillating. It doesn't happen very often but sometimes the light headed feeling is worth the daydream.

It's probably time to click my heels three times now...


  1. hmmm - pretty sure neither of these apply to me! ;)
    But this post did get me thinking about your previous 'should I/shouldn't I' post. Did you say anything to her? Did I miss the update?

  2. Haha :)
    Yes I did say something, she read the post in fact!
    That is all i can share for now...