Sunday, July 3, 2011

#46 Ghosts

Regret is an awful thing. I can't stand the feeling. I have several regrets so far, but you just have to move on. Otherwise they can be paralysing.

It is the anniversary of one of my regrets. It's only just hit me a couple of days ago and I've been thinking about it ever since. Ten years ago... around this time of year... I can't believe it's been ten years. I really can't. I would do anything to go back and fix what I did. To change my behaviour, to take back my actions and the stupid things I said. These last few days I have felt melancholic, still mourning after all these years...

Surely I'm not the only one who has felt like this. Tell me there are others out there...


  1. For some reason my blog feed hasn't been picking you up lately and I've suddenly got a 'Leeroy' overload....but this post made my heart ache for you. There are others out there. We have all done/said things that have impacted greatly on our lives and on those of others. Regret is a natural, normal thing - but you shouldn't feel this pain. Make peace with what has gone before. There is no undoing it. Living life with the knowledge of never making the same mistake again is all we can ask. Set yourself free.

  2. oh Esther you are so great :)
    it's hard... actually the more i think about 2001, the more sad memories i think of. Shiza i sound like i always think of sad things, i honestly dont. it was just a thought, but i'll think about that another time. I'm glad I am not the only one who has ruined good things.
    Good advice Esther. Thank you :)